Gabby

I get a bit weird around Gabby. I consider people's feelings less. Anything to make her laugh. 

Luna Park

Chris armas gave me and Kevin free all day passes to luna park. It was really fun!!! I went on the Ferris wheel, which I hate, then we basically went on everything. If I got freaked out he made me talk about random things in my life so I overcame my anxiety about heights. I'm definitely going to use that in real life. 

Passion

If I was to be honest I fall in and out of love a thousand times a day.

Take the song "you to me are everything". Yesterday I played it repeatedly. Today I can't stand it. 

Then halfway through today as day turned into night I started loving it again. 

Perhaps we can love anything 

I watched this trailer for a movie called Passion where these girls kissed and such. I wouldn't kiss a girl but the movie made it look glamorous. 

The Future

Sometimes you realise how lucky you are to be alone.

You would like to wake up everyday with someone who makes you smile.

But there's also a chance you could wake up with someone that makes you want to stick your head in an oven.

Here's to us
Here's to love
All the times
That we ****ed up
Here's to you
Fill the glass
Cause the last few days
Have kicked my ass

Wisdom

I dearly hope for wisdom for young high school girls.

I hope they will realise that the opinion of others, doesn't mean anything. That the friends whose opinions they worship may not be around in 10 years time.

Some day they may see that their bodies are to be hidden, not because they are ashamed, but because they refuse to be objectified or judged by their exterior features.

One day girls will come to love themselves, not because they are talented, or intelligent, or special, but because their God loves them, and they are more than just meat and bones who can sing, speak and write.

I hope this for everyone, even myself.

Am unsure how to love

I no longer like that song. Commitment levels = nothing

Failure

Feeling like I am failing everything. 

Don't even know how to talk to girls any more. 

Should just give up maybe. 

Singleness

I told my friend George if I ever got married then I wouldn't let him be by himself. He's committed to be single and I don't want him to be lonely.

That being said it's almost impossible to keep promises when they hinge on other people. 

Beautiful people

Some people are beautiful. I love being around them. 

It's something in who they are.

People who are genuine are amazing. It's so hard to find people who strive to be honest rather than to create an image. 

Once I find them I never let them go. 

Plush toys

Phil loves plush toys.

He creates these whole worlds for them. They all have different relationships and they have back stories and wars.

At first I laughed at how strange that was, but it started to remember that I used to do that too. 

When I was younger I had a feeling that my stuffed toys were real. I would turn them all the other way when I got changed. They would go on adventures to different lands, talk to each other, and generally have fun. I had so many stuffed toys and I loved creating new stories. 

Then I got a dog. 

In year 4. 

Better than a million stuffed toys.